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Cause I'm tired of being lonely
With no money and no friends
I'm tired of being me and that's the end

I'll do anything I need to do
To make you hold my hand
I'll say anything I need to say
To make you understand

That a hopeless boy is possibly
The best you'll ever get
And I promise I'll be true until the end

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Morning light
Climbs its way through shades
And greets my eyes
I've seen that bastard sun
A million times
He shines so bright
And won't die

8 AM
My clock is screaming
And the day begins
I hit the snooze 
They say that sloth's a sin
But it always win
And we're friends

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They say I can be most anything
If I can learn how to make the cash registers sing
They say I can do most anything
As long as I was born in the Californian Copy Machine

So climb with me up the tallest tree
We're gonna throw our dreams away
They're making such a waste of the cranial space
We're gonna throw our dreams away
And when the ambulette comes to pick them up
They'll all be dead
And when ambulette comes to pick them up
They'll all be dead

I shoot a glance to the lady on the cover
She's losing air from the glass she's pinned under
Shortness of breath and a lacking bit of luster 
But I guess it pays well enough 

Clear a path to the promised land 
I need a place to wash my filthy hands
I hear that agony's in high demand 
As well as blackened hair and screamo bands

O, we climb out of windows
And pass through the walls
We break through the soil 
And float down the halls
Transparent like water
But thick as the blood
We break through the soil
And turn it to mud
~
Time tries to chase us
But falls fast behind
He screams for our help
As we watch him unwind
Restless, a child
We laugh as he dies
He screams for our help
 We muffle his cries
~
This villain expires
We dance in his pain
Free from the shackles
We're free from the bane
As day passes by
And it turns into night
Free from the shackles
That held us in fright

Current Mood:

pensive

Beauty sleeps away inside her lonely twin size bed
While death creeps in the nightlife of her body
And I watch it all unfold, it's just a dream inside my head
That runs deep inside the nightlife of my mind
~
And I toss and I turn 'til it finally disappears
When I wake I am met with the loneliness
And it seems I will fall into the chasms of my fears
As I break in the back of my memory

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Wake me up to break me down
All the things we said mean nothing now
Just specks of sound on an empty board
I won't turn the faders to hear their chords
'Cause they're out of time and out of key
Just a bittersweet cacaphony
Screaming out for something I can't see
Filling me with rampant apathy
~
So I stop the track before it can consume
Then I go back home, retire to my room
Where I fill up every notebook that I own
With every side of you I've ever known
~
There's the good, the bad, the beautiful
The confusing undeniable
Like a child, I fell for every line
And I hit the floor most every time
And the bruises stayed with me undisturbed
As I hung onto your every word
And the three that fell from clumsy fingers
Rang out loud and still they linger
~
In the cracks of my stale plastic heart
Doomed to break and break right from the start

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I turned you into a song
But it hurt my throat to sing
So I killed you with a pen
But it didn't solve a thing
When I put my thoughts to paper
From my shallow mind you fell
Just to hear me cry in agony,
"I'd follow you throught hell"
~
So I pushed you away for a while
Learned to love, learned to laugh, learned to smile
Knowing you'd come back for me
Yeah, you'd come back to me
~
I'm lost in your translation
Choking on the words I've said
And I hold onto these feelings 
Wishing so bad they were dead
Go away, go away
Can't you see I have nothing to say
To you or anyone else in the way
Oh, that boy in my head thinks of you every day
~
So I'll kill, I'll kill him dead
'Til he's just white noise in my head
Just a blur, just a ghost, just a lie
Like our love, like a dream, he will die

The lights were burning brightly
As I stumbled off the stage
Into a brand new set of problems
That filled up every page
Of a notebook someone bought for me
Her beauty, I will miss
When I'm sitting on a park bench
And I'm thinking 'bout her kiss
~
She visits in my slumber
And I write down every dream
Though the nightmares stay on longer
They will leave me when I scream
Every love note I wrote in this book
Every heart filled melody
Every time I turn my voice to her
She turns away from me
~
So I just won't try anymore
~
Now I'm standing on a balcony
My vision starts to blur
I see a million faces on the street
And all of them are hers
So I shake my head and turn away
From that weary town below
My friends they think I'm crazy
Well I guess that they should know
~
'Cause they all are just as fucked as me 
When they crawl into their beds
With a boy or girl trapped in their hearts
And a pounding in their heads
Oh, the loneliness it beats on them
Every time they try to sleep
And the dreams they have of happiness
They know they cannot keep
~
So most don't sleep at all
~
Now the lights are burning brightly
As I'm called up to the stage
When I sing the words she gave to me
Before them I will say :
"This one is for a girl
She knows damn well who she might be"
And I'll die with every note I sing
Of that tearful memory
~
They'll laugh and cheer for my sorrow
They'll yell and cry for my pain
While she scoffs and turns her head away
From these thoughts I entertain 
But she doesn't matter anymore
What matters now is me 
So I'll sing until my time is up 
And bow out gracefully
~
That will suit me fine 'til I'm bored
~
The time, it moves in circles
So it always ends the same
Some new meaning to the story
Only difference is the blame
That you place on those who alter you
For better or for worse
No, you're dreams don't really die
They just sleep inside the hearse
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So as we drift atop the weight
Of all the choices we have made
We can laugh about the times we shared
And wish we could have stayed
With the broken hearts we traded in
For something we could mend
This all started when I ran away
I don't think it will end
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But I'll try and live it down